With the first three phases of grief behind me, I’ve moving on to the step four of seven: depression, reflection, and lonliness. I am a bit depressed, mostly because every morning when I wake up I’m staring at a giant pile of my clothes, shoes and bathroom “necessities” that I’ve been putting off organizing for a week. Reflection? I am reflecting on how much clothing and makeup I purged—several large garbage bags worth—and how I still have piles with no home. Lonely? I do feel that ironic loneliness that happens when you’re surrounded by so much, but still feeling alone this world. And I am indeed alone in my responsibility to get it all in order.
But let’s take a baby step towards step number five, “the upward turn,” by celebrating the amazing custom wallpaper we’ve installed in The Teen’s room. Truth be told I didn’t lift a finger to install it. The kind folks at NousDecor recruited celebrity interior designer Mark Cutler (he did JLo’s house!) to design a wallpaper featuring all of our boy’s favorite things, plus a design for the rest of the room! Read more about it here.
I’m focusing for now on the wallpaper because 1. It’s the coolest thing in the room, 2. The Teen called it “sick” when he saw it for the first time, which cool/young people in my life tell me is a positive review, and 3. We still have a little work to do on the rest of the room.
But stay tuned, because I have a deadline. Tend.com is filming our home at the end of this month, so both my room and The Teen’s must be ready by then! This is a good thing, because otherwise things may continue as is, with my bags of bags (Yes I have several bags that contain nothing but other bags. At least they are together with their kind) piled atop bags of shoes which are wedged in between my bags of beauty products.